Not in the Handbook

Yesterday my two troubled kinders pushed the envelope of bad day. I was so proud of how the class behaved though and we got a fair amount done. I felt pretty good, like I was getting it.

Today my two troubled ones toed the line very well for them and pretty much as an average student… but the rest of my class collapsed. A poorly executed assembly disrupted the day and took away their PE, was long, and got them off rhythm. Then they slowly unraveled, and so did I. I had to deal with a girl that pooped her pants and just sat there seemingly unaware. I was in small group centers rotation and working on reading when another student got my attention. See, the handbook says to keep an eye on the room but do your best to ignore all the tugs and pokes of those not in your guided small group. Glad I dismissed that and rescued my furniture and got the girl changed. She just sat there like this was business as usual. In the meantime, one of my usually good performers – good because if he gets a bad report I am fairly certain he gets his behind blistered – was melting down to the point of kicking things, throwing things and just whining/grunting demonstrably, because he had gotten a color change, and the end of the day was fast approaching. I just couldn’t get a handle on it all flying at one time. I felt my planned activities were now boring them after being routine, and I just felt like a poor teacher.

Had a useless meeting after school that was redundant to one I had at new teacher induction – as in same videos – and had to cancel another required class which I will have to take later. Just inconvenience but made the day longer than it had to be.

My girls are doing great at their school, but it was hard to be cheery. The wonderful Digimom has tons of supportive praise and resources and I probably didn’t seem appreciative but I am. I just not in a frame to process it right now. We’ll see what tomorrow holds – it’s friday – hopefully not a stormy one.

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